Well, yesterday turned out to be quite the day. My first trip to the dentist came and went, along with a trip to the phone store to replace my cell phone which did not survive a toilet swim. Outside of the obvious necessities, the day seemed like a “re-coming ” out day for my fulltime transgender feminine self.
The dentist was first. As I mentioned before, the information form I filled out only had room for three genders…male, female and “unspecified.” I chose the unspecified box and prepared myself for an appointment full of gender confusion. After all, this was one of a very few times in the past year I had spent any significant time without a mask. As bad as my teeth were, I didn’t want to show them off which was impossible in a dentist’s office.
It turned out I didn’t have to worry when I heard the woman who checked me in respond to the hygienist who was working on me as “she.” My heart soared as my mouth hurt.
To make a long story short, as I suspected, my top teeth (or what was left of them) were shot and my bottom teeth were in good shape. So, I was a candidate for top dentures. Subtitled, goodbye stimulus checks. Finally, I will have my smile back.
After heading back home to pick Liz up, we went to the phone store. The young clerk who waited on us had no problem with calling me she and her. After another hit to my bank account, I walked out with a new phone.
The whole day was wonderful in that it recharged my gender batteries. For once I didn’t feel any inner imposter guilt when I was called “she” or “her.” I felt it was my retribution for all the years of transgender struggle and gender dysphoria I went through to arrive where I am.
One thing the pandemic taught me was how much I needed the public gender feedback I received to survive. I know who I am every morning when I wake up but sometimes it takes a little reinforcement from the public to let me know the real me.