Connie commented on the Cyrsti’s Condo “Attraction” post:
“As I approach both my 70th birthday and 49th wedding anniversary, attraction is quite different than it was before. While I don’t feel lonely, I do feel a loss. I was lucky that my transition to living as a woman was accepted by my wife, but the relationship changed. We were friends before we married, and, while that part has only strengthened over the years, romance was placed on the back burner years ago. Of course, it’s much more complicated than just that, as there are other factors (many of them having to do with health) that I won’t divulge here. Love and companionship create a bond that can be so much stronger than physical attraction.
I could write of a multitude of occasions when someone was attracted to me as a trans woman. It has never been the case that I consciously attempted to cause any of them. I have been “hit on” by men (both gay and straight), women (both cis and trans), and even a trans man. In each case, I have asked myself what it was that attracted them to me. As far as I know, none of them could have been sure of my genitalia or the “authenticity” of my breasts. In at least a couple encounters, I’m not even sure they knew I was a trans woman. I’m not naïve enough that I believe they were all attracted to my sparkly personality, either.
I decided long ago that, although I can adeptly create the illusion that there is a female body beneath my clothing, it doesn’t matter – because I know there is not. The only way, now, that I would feel sexually attractive would be if I had female genitalia and breasts. The fact is that if I don’t feel attractive the way I am, then I wouldn’t be interested in anyone else who might be attracted to me this way, either.
I know it is largely due to my dysphoria that causes me to feel the way I do. Thank God I have a wife who values our love, companionship, and close friendship as much as I do. Those are pretty attractive qualities, in themselves, after all.”
Thanks for the comment!
As I have said many times, my major contact with genders when I began to come out as a transgender woman came from cis women, mainly lesbians although one of my first dates was with a trans man. Although I like to deceive myself into thinking the majority of attraction came from how I presented myself, the reality was my attraction came from the fact I was different.
I am a firm believer in most cis women aren’t as grounded in a strict gender binary as men are. So my gender blurring was a plus to them.
Plus my attraction could have been my desire to live an authentic life on a cis woman’s side of the gender spectrum.
To be certain there are no easy answers.