Fear

As Cyrsti’s Condo is firmly entrenched in it’s tenth year of existence and with over 6,000 posts, finding new topics to explore becomes increasingly difficult. It’s during this time I aggressively seek outside sources for ideas. 

Recently, I found this quote which describes many of the early experiences I went through as I explored the feminine world as a cross dresser earlier in life. This was before I transitioned into a fully functioning transgender woman.

Every once in a while though, I encounter the occasional novice transgender person who thinks I magically arrived where I am now with very few problems. All of that couldn’t be farther from the truth.

Like so many others who encountered gender dysphoria during their life, I seemingly had to go through so many self destructive times which I could write a whole new post about. In other words, I felt the fear and did it anyway…the wrong way. 

I was fortunate though in that I was able to grasp a couple of things which helped to to get by and even succeed.

The first of which was being able to begin HRT (hormone replacement therapy) which at my age wasn’t a given. I had to have the good health to do it. Essentially what happened to me outside of the obvious was the feminine pronouns took the male edge off of me. I became easier to get along with. 

The second of which was when I encountered a series of cis women who welcomed me into their circle and I was able to learn more completely how to exist in a feminine world. 

Overall, this phrase became my mantra and I have been able to succeed. I never take it for granted. 

Thanks to Lifesfinewhine.com for the quote!

3 Comments

  1. People are born differently to others, i believe in past lifes which most people don’t, but it does explain alot, if for example you in a past life was a woman, it would explain why you feel the need to be a woman in this life. Oh and i also believe that every single one of us humans should be able to live without fear of our life choices.

    1. I too have wondered if my past lives factored into me following my gender desires to enter the feminine world! Since my year in Thailand, I have always appreciated the Buddhist religion and it’s reincarnation teachings.
      I wish more people were similar to you in your feelings about living! Thanks for commenting.

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